Excerpt from the book:
He loved the word “trajectory”
as if there were some place to go,
some as-yet unmet destination.
Neither of us willing to leave or wanting to,
me unable to hide, him unable to be open.
Open, closed, closed, open.
exploring the edges of monogamy,
me with mine,
endless rounds of discussion,
testing and setting boundaries and limits,
what would be said or unsaid,
settling on the home and away visits after
many hard-false starts,
missteps leaving footprints,
scars on hearts,
trying to heal to learn that
Love is not pie.
Caught between a loving husband and a man from her past, one woman chooses an unconventional way to explore her personal “road not taken.”
Love is Not Pie is a personal exploration navigating the world of consensual non-monogamy and polyamory. This collection of poems—erotic, yearning, sweet, and angry—was written by Lazaruk to and about her two beloved men over the course of several years. Collected here for the first time, the original poems are woven together with new pieces that provide context for how the story unfolded, how the love affair finally ended, and why.
In this expressive work of poetry, Lazaruk explores attachment, fear, love, lust, grief, and the push-pull between what she knows is right, and how she justifies her actions. Love Is Not Pie will resonate with readers who have flirted with relationships outside the norm of Western marital conventions, as well as those who are interested in peering behind the curtain of what most of us show the world about our private lives.